Hey again, y'all!

"hi guys junior year is going gr8" -me, four years ago, imagining how I'd sound in 2020 as a junior
Sorry to anyone who signed up for emails about this blog updating; you've probably forgotten it exists by now. Which is valid, it hasn't been active for around four years.
Life updates, in no particular order:
-I came out as a guy, changed my legal name and gender, and am now officially Hunter Blake Martin
-I gained and lost several boyfriends, but I've been dating a dude named Elijah for almost a year now. Hope this works out!
-I've acquired various real-world interests, including percussion, art, and fishkeeping (weird, I know, right? Long story)
-I've gotten... grades in high school
-I'm now the de facto president of our school GSA
-I get to be center snare of our marching drumline next year
-Other various cool stuff (see below)
Gained some friends, lost some friends, gotten better at life and living in general. Not depressed anymore, not in denial about my mental health, finally at a more comfortable place. I'm doing college visits (oh, did I mention- I'm going to college to become a band director) and probably going to University of Wisconsin somewhere.
I'm finally medicated for my ADHD as well as my depression, and I have a cool therapist who taught me how to actually cope in a healthy fashion. Life's good, significantly better than it's ever been, and each day seems a little brighter.
If you see this post, if anyone sees this post? Remember that there's nowhere to go but up, always. If you're in a bad place, seek help; if you're in a good place, lift up friends that might not be doing so well. Involve yourself in the real world, challenge yourself mentally and physically, and keep growing and learning every day.
One last note: almost 4000 views are you guys CRAZY?!
Signing off yet again,
Hunter :)

Edit: I almost forgot the music rec for this post! Here you go.

Bye guys

So.
I've decided, after a few years, to sort of end this blog. Officially.
I'm keeping the site up, for nostalgia purposes, because I feel like I should- it was sort of the place I discovered my sexuality, really the place I started to understand who I was. So the posts won't be disappearing or anything. I'm just going to not post anymore, officially. Maybe I'll update in like 2020 and be like "omg guys junior year is going gr8" but besides that I probably won't do anything on here. See you. Bye!

-This is Gracc McDede, signing off.
Peace out.

oh my gosh!

I'm SOOOOOOO sorry for not updating. Like, the sorriest. I just had a ton going on with end-of-school and friends and AAAH so much stuff! Well, let's see...

• End of school! I got a ton of yearbook signatures, and I was surprised to find that I knew everyone that had signed! (Maybe I knew more people than I thought...) Anyway, I've graduated and become a big huge *boop, this is not allowed to be revealed* grader! *squee of happiness* So that was fun. We had our end-of-the-year choir concert (and a band one too), and that was hard but fun to do.
• I started riding dirt bikes with my dad! He's teaching me how to shift and stuff, so that once I turn 16, I can get a motorcycle license and be ultra-cool and hyper-awesome.
• He also did a thing at his work called Gromkhana, in which people ride the cutest lil' bike (called a grom) on an obstacle course. The person with the fastest time at the end of the day gets to keep the Grom! (yay) The first weekend got rained out, but the second one was SCORCHING HOT! I worked both of them, for 10 hours each, getting paid $5 an hour, and I now am 100 dollars richer than I was before that happened. Awesome.
• TATINOF. *big intake of air* itwasthemostawesomethingthathaseverhappenedtomeanditwasactuallydanandphilandohmygodhowdoiexpressfeelingrightnowandtheyusedoneofmychallenges!!!anditwasamazingandalsonotonfireandigotmerchandmetatonoffansthatwerelikemeandthepreshowplaylistwasABSOLUTELYAWESOMEandithadsomanysongsandeveryoneknewthelyricstoallthesongsanditwaswonderfulandimnotgonnaspoilanythingbutwootwootWOOTWOOT WOOT WOOT W O o t w  o  o  t *gasp gasp gasp*
• Yeah, that's pretty much what's been happening.
• Ta daa.

So there we go, an update! sorry it's super short, I'm just pretty tired right now and I have a few friends that I want to talk to. Just wanted to let you know I'm still alive. And I'll post waaaay more on this blog during the summer, promise. See you guys soon!

Music- Monstercat Podcast 108. All of it. It's right here. LISTEN TO IT. IT'S SO GOOD. SO FREAKIN' GOOD!

WOW. just... I'm disappointed in myself

I haven't posted since EVER. Ugh.

A lot has happened though!
1. My friend Mary-Chan has started a promotional channel! I'm so proud... anyway, check that out if you have time to listen to good stuff.
2. My friend's dog died D: (is sad)
3. May 4th. Just- May 4th. May the 4th be with you, to anyone out there, no matter what day it is!
4. It's my friend's birthday tomorrow (happy birthday, you know who you are.)
5. Homestuck.
Oh, dear lord. Where do I begin on Homestuck?
Some of you- okay, probably anyone who was on the internet or went to any comic or anime con from around 2013 until now- know what Homestuck is, or probably a little of the pretense. It's quite complicated. The best way to describe it, I think, is that it's "a webcomic about four kids, then sixteen, then twenty kids. They change the world and die a lot." or in the creator's own words, it's a "sprawling creation myth about kids in houses". It's quite overly complicated, has a 500-page intermission that I skipped, and is a combination of art, drawing, animation, anime, Flash games, and HTML5. Very fun. It also ended on 4/13, technically. There's an epilogue. But yeah, read it for more info and stuff and you'll probably understand why I'm obsessed.

So, yeah, woo hoo. not much in my actual life, except school and grades and stuff which is boring and I don't want to bore you. I just also wanted to say that I have 23 days until I go to TATINOF Chicago. I'm excited. Excitement. whaaaaat

Music: Skewed by Karma Fields, Fixed_ by Karma Fields. Yes, that is an underscore, and yes, that is part of the title.
YouTuber: for the heck of it, jacksepticeye. he's cool and stuff.

hey sorry about not posting

lots of exciting stuff happened really fast and I didn't have time to go on here and talk about it

First of all, something known as PARCC testing is coming up soon for me! I'm not looking forward to it at all. First of all, we don't get to go to Band or Choir for around 2 weeks, and second, it's not that it's hard, it's just that it takes forever! Ugh. At least once I take it it'll be over. And once I do, I know that the end of the school year is just around the corner- and right after that, TATINOF! (eee) I found out that almost all my friends have tickets. Maybe we'll spot each other in the audience! Probably not, though. It's a big theater.

Monstercat Podcast number 100 came out a few days ago! *excited* It's almost 3 hours long with over 100 songs, and it's AWESOME AND YOU SHOULD WATCH IT NOW DO IT

Have any of you watched someone called Bill Wurtz? He makes cool videos about random stuff at www.billwurtz.com. He made the video history of japan, which taught me more about japan than I've learned in any other time of my life! (and it's melodic, too.) So check him out!

School was school. Not much changed. We're studying the War of 1812. Did you know that we invaded Canada and burned York (modern-day Toronto, the British capital at the time) to the ground? And for payback, the British burned Washington D.C. Dolly Madison saved a painting of George Washington from the burning White House, though. I think that was pretty cool of her.

Quick survey! How do you draw? How did you learn? For example, I learned from looking at artists' art that I admired, and watching how they drew certain things like expressions. I also traced a bit of artwork to just see how to do things like clothing folds. So how did you do it? I have a friend who practiced drawing clothing and stuff by photographing himself in the mirror, then drawing his character in the same poses as he was in. I think that was pretty cool.

This is turning into one of those random rant things. OH WAIT I FORGOT THERE'S NEWS! I'm going to be making a Weebly side-blog based off of this one, just detailing random stuff about my fandoms. So if you want to hear me rant more about Undertale, go there! (Web address will be posted next time; I'm still working out some kinks in the system.) Weebly is pretty cool if you want to make an easy site. Blogger is a lot more complicated with HTML and stuff.

That's pretty much all I have for you today! In totak:

• PARCC testing
• Monstercat Podcast 100! YAY!
• Excited for TATINOF
• Check out Bill Wurtz
• How do you draw? Comment below!
• Weebly side-blog coming soon! (for fandoms!)

See you next time!

YouTuber: Bill Wurtz

Song: Rattlesnake by Rogue (Monstercat Podcast #100 first song, and first Dubstep song I ever listened to)

DE-FENSE! DE-FENSE!

So I went to a Bulls game today, and as you may know, they lost. It was unbearable. We were SO CLOSE! If we didn't have a penalty called on us, we would have WON. WE WOULD HAVE WON. This is why I don't get involved in sports. Ugh. I would have rather stayed home and been on my computer for the seven hours it took us to do everything. At least I saw Chicago! It seems that there are fences under the bridges, and people are putting locks on there like they do on that bridge in Paris. Pretty cool, I think.

Besides that, I have absolutely nothing to report! I didn't get the chance to do much because we left at four and came back at eleven. This is not good. It means I don't get to tell you anything else. *cries*

Well, sorry! Hopefully there'll be more to report tomorrow!
Song: Pegboard Nerds & Grabbitz- All Alone

Very Berry Cherry Perry Scary Mary Marry Nary Wary Parry

Rhyming words!
So this is an update on my life as per the end of my day. I had an awesome time with my friends! We played the longest game of Uno EVER (it took us the entire time to finish it) and we cracked up at Tumblr stuff and April Fools' stuff. (I'm so glad it's April Fools', there are some people **cough cough donald trump** who have been planning elaborate pranks of course!) Also, there's a new video by DanandPhilCRAFTS that you should check out! Now! Do! It! We also cried major big-time over Gravity Falls feels again, and I told them about the new fandoms I'm in! We overall had an amazing time and I can't wait for them to come back hopefully next week!

Well, that's all! Gotta go to bed or something :D

OH WAIT! Important stuff!
So serious business for a minute.
I want to tell you guys something right now.
I have been living a lie.
I was adopted.
I'm not sure what this means for my life in general, but my parents told me, and I'm trying to re-define normal at the moment. That was some probable cause for the hiatus.

Well see you I guess!

(Some music: here, here, here)

Yet Another Normal Post

Hey everyone! Quick lil' promo here- I have a Soundcloud, also called Gracc McDede, and I repost a lot of dubstep stuff so if you like dubstep follow me pls

Well, now that that's out of the way, I'll tell you about today so far! It's been... boring, mostly. Me and my little sister sat in my dad's office and watched Miraculous and read and drew. Not much to report.
So instead of reporting about today (although my friends are going to come over later, so...), I'm going to talk about some stuff almost at random. Be prepared.

So on the one hand, what is up with terrorists? they aren't good at all. I don't like them. They're very not good for anyone except maybe themselves and usually not themselves either because they suicide and stuff. So why do they do it? I don't know. If you do, comment.

Oh, and Homestuck has been going well so far. I keep going to Tumblr to look at one thing and getting distracted from reading it, though. It's still cool. It's very exciting and weird and OH MY GOSH I LOST THE PLOT AGAIN but at the same time it's interesting and philosophical and witty and funny almost in an undertale-style way. I tried to draw fanart and was terrible at it, like I usually am. Darn.

Well, at least there's Monstercat, right? They're almost at their one hundredth podcast! exciting stuff! their newest compilation was SO AWESOME. I love it. I'm listening to one of their podcasts right now actually.

This headset that I'm wearing definitely makes me look like one of those people in "Online Help & Service" that works minimum wage and deals with so much that they're dead inside. That's pretty cool. I think I'll keep the look.
Speaking of looks, I've been meaning to re-dye my hair! I need to make an appointment, because I still hate the weird color it is now. Also it would be nice to get my hair trimmed. Maybe I'll dye it black on the surface and blue or something underneath, or maybe like a dark inky blue or something. I don't know. It's really frustrating that most color companies don't stock much blue or any unnatural colors in general because there are so many colors of blue! and you're only giving me like 3 colors! it's annoying!

I believe I may (definitely) have a cold. It's bugging me. My throat hurts and has gunk in it. I wish we had a vaccine against the common cold. That would be awesome. I would be first in line. Even though I hate getting shots. Well, we can only hope that science can advance to cure one of the most frequent diseases that plague us, especially when it actually does kill people! not much but still!

I can't wait for my friends to come over. It feels like it's been forever and I have so much to discuss and OH MY GOSH I FORGOT TO TELL THEM LAST TIME ABOUT THAT ONE THING

anyways.


YouTuber of the Day is Monstercat. Because Monstercat is Monstercat is Monstercat.
Song of the Day... gosh, it's so hard to pick! So many good ones! I'll pick a couple:

• Nitro Fun- Final Boss
• Case & Point- Error Code
• Karma Fields- Edge of the World
• Quantum by Astronaut (Spag Heddy Remix)
• Noisestorm- Antihero
• Jauz & Pegboard Nerds- Get On Up (YULTRON Remix)
• Falcon Funk- Catnip Trip
• Loosid- Clouds (feat. Raycee Jones)

So there ya have it! A lil' playlist of music instead of just one track! I'm gonna go work on my book now- see you tomorrow or later today, if I can :D

SORRY FOR THE HIATUS!

I want to apologize for not posting in forever D: I would have, but stuff like school was keeping me tied up. I'll attempt to update you on stuff that's happened, and probably miss a lot of stuff!

• Most notably, I started reading Homestuck. What an undertaking!
• I went to a bouncy house palace place and got slide-burn.
• I got my parents and sister to start listening to dubstep! (yay!)
• I was on a podcast called What Should I Read Next (it's by Anne Bogel)!
• After seeing many, many posts about a certain cartoon series on Tumblr, I decided to watch just one episode.
• I subsequently got super addicted. I'm going to spend most of my time ranting about this, Undertale, Homestuck, Dan and Phil, and Harry Potter along with many other things.
• Most of this blog post will be about Homestuck and that cartoon series.

So exciting! Much ye!

~Homestuck~

Wow. This is... a thing. I don't know exactly what to call it, because it's not really a book, or a comic, or a game. It's just... Homestuck. That's the only way to describe it. It's a modern Odyssey. Quite literally, thousands of pages. Imagine a vast Saharan desert. That's what it is, page-wise. It's the tale simply of a little boy wanting to play a computer game with his friends. But then it gets into things with imagination and blurs the lines between reality and dreaming, and what's real life or a video game, and what does it mean to be a chosen one, and... yeah. It starts very slow but then has a turnaround like you wouldn't imagine. It picks up SO QUICKLY. I had trouble following some of the plot at times, but it wasn't usually that hard. Usually. It's sort of like a collection of short stories in the same universe? But they really aren't? Ugh, it's hard to describe. But you should still definitely read it! (It did make me laugh out loud on more than a few occasions.)

~The Cartoon~

So it's called Miraculous, sometimes called Miraculous Ladybug. It's about a girl. She gets earrings and a magical fairy whom can be called upon to transform into Ladybug, a superhero who fights crime with a yo-yo and kills magic dark butterflies. Basically, it's a gateway drug into anime. Originally, it came out in France and Korea, but Nick is working on doing an English dub for us americans :D I've been mostly looking at the subtitled ones currently, although I listened to one dubbed one and it wasn't too bad. Oh, and that's not all: She fights alongside another person called Chat Noir (black cat in french) whom is actually Adrien, who is the son of a really rich businessman and who does photoshoots for perfume and such, who she also has a crush on because he goes to their school. But he doesn't want to get involved with her non-Ladybug form (a girl called Marinette) because he as Chat Noir has a crush on Ladybug, and he doesn't know they're the same person. Basically, it's complicated and cute and anime for people that don't watch anime. I love it.

It's easier to understand if you're watching it, really! The origin story hasn't been quiiiiite worked out yet, but you'll see. I have become a convert of the cult. Thanks, Tumblr.

Well, those are the new fandoms I'm in currently! Sorry for ranting and not actually posting, but I'm on spring break and should have time to actually post a post later in the week :D sorry for taking a break and happy to be back!

-Gracc 

Midnight Rant!

Hey guys
so if I have insomnia and nothing else to do, I might be going on here, titling a post "Midnight Rant" or something, and proceeding to talk about random topics at random for a while until I get sleepy again while listening to rad music. pls note: spoilers are included in all of them for everything. if you abhor bad grammar or spelling, please do not spell check me in the comments; I'm trying to get tired and don't have time for nonsense such as grammar and things. I'll also use run-on sentences and tons of terrible spelling so yeeeeah! let's go!!! (this is like where I put my thoughts instead of blogging on tumblr)

hokay so i watched the gravity falls special secret show thing and it was really good so you should watch it too because it has secrets about the show and it's hirsch and lamby lamby dance yeah basically
oh and i kissed someone i liked today which was super amazing and then i ran off and was pumped because half day omg and the constitution test didn't stand a chance and i was already pumped and then I crashed because my dad stopped my perfect afternoon by saying "YOU KNOW WHAT WE GON STAY HOME" and i was gonna have a home alone night but noooo and he didn't even ask what i got on the test and i need someone to rant to madly so i thought let's blog and play minecraft and today i also spent like an hour on coloring in a heart because stupid thing says it's for drawing and doesn't have a fill function like seriously even windows paint has a fill function what was their budget for this thing but i got it done and did some effects and i'm satisfied with it
all my friends are in bed, and i probably should be in bed too it's really late but idc who knows i might stay up all night just because i can. okay gracc this is bad thinking for being an insomniac battling their insomnia. i'm thirsty. let's get a drink of water.
drink of water taken. back to the point of the fact that why in the world have i had this swirly design on my arm for a week now like i mean whyyy??? it was fun and i wanna keep doing it for some reason oh and SANS is amazing and i have many dream demon friends and enemies and bill cipher might have a twin???? headcanon of mine that i did tonight and i wanna make something but what, is the question

welp

g'night

i'm gonna get sleep and things

hopefully